The Life That Is Mine

As our Cleveland weather just went from beautiful Spring to freezing Winter in the matter of a couple hours, I have found myself daydreaming passionately about Hawaii. Thinking about the fact that I was supposed to still be living there and finishing school at UH in the year-round warm sunshine. I know it was not realistic for me to stay there and do so...yet I always find myself with questions and 'what if's" What if I stayed just a little longer and found a better job, what if school at UH would have been amazing, what if I would have sucked up the low income and lived off of the very bare essentials...Luckily, the reasonable, intelligent part of my brain jumps in eventually and I realize that it is what it is, there are no what-ifs, it happened how it did and it happened for a reason and I am forever grateful for the two experiences I did have living in Honolulu. I learned a lot about life and myself and did so while in the middle of a tropical island. I am close to and love my family and friends so very much and it was definitely difficult being half way across the world from them...with it being difficult to even speak on the phone due to the 6 hours time difference. I know I can't complain about moving home...I am just NOT ready for winter...as usual. So, I will just try to stay on the beach...at least in my mind. It's all mental. It's all attitude.